Strong WilledWhy didn't you tell me?Out of all people,Shouldn't I be the one to know?You kept it from me.The one you say is the most imortant.Am I really?I feel like a rag,Used and trown away.Maybe I was the one to leave,But should I have before?I can't believe what I heard you say.All I thought at first,even though it was suspected,You let me know after I had gone.You want me back?You keep pushing me away!What I wanted was never there.I can't love you,Now I never will.If I do,It will never be the same,For it is shallow now.You say sorry,But meaning it is different.I know how is feels now.How she felt.I will never make the same mistake.No one will tie me,To my own will.
ConfusedConfused. I guess that is the only word to describe what I was feeling. Really, My whole mind was like a muddy pond. You couldn't see anything clearly if you wanted to. I kept trying to clear it out, but I just kept getting a blurry picture of what I thought I had known before then. Now I know what I had thought then was wrong, but now I'm not sure again. Do I really understand that word. Not confusion, but I dare not say the word. Then it might happen again. I might fall once more because the urge to throw myself down is the worst temptation I have fought.Will I survive this time? I will never know, but I will try not to fall, for slipping might be worse than not knowing.
Chained to the MarginI stared at him. Sometimes He annoyed the crap out of me."I'm chained against my own will." I muttered."You can leave whenever you want. I don't want to hold you back.""Really?! I have one thought about leaving and you threaten to hurt yourself. Or worse. I can't leave knowing you would do that. I do care about you." I shot back."I only make you stay because I love you."I saw that look in his eyes. That look that made me want to agree with him.I cared a lot about him, but enough was enough. I was going to leave, and this time he wasn't going to stop me."If you really loved me, you would let me go."